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3 Tips For Managing Expectations In Motherhood

10/9/2018

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Motherhood is hard. Something that makes motherhood even harder is setting expectations for yourself that you constantly feel like you are not meeting. We often feel that we need to do it all and at the rate that we got it done when we were single without children. Another common expectation floating around in the mind of many mothers is “I think I should have it together by now and know what I’m doing” and feeling like you are the only who doesn't have it together. The reality is you will not have it all together all of the time and that is ok. No one does. 

​It is important to constantly reality check our expectations in motherhood. Expecting myself to be as efficient, as productive or “together” as I once was b.k. “before kids” leaves me feeling like I’m failing. I have found that instead of being hard on myself for not living up to my own expectations, I take a step back and reflect on whether or not I’m demanding too much of myself. And then I adjust. Adjust what is on my plate to make it more manageable. Adjust my thought process around what it means to be productive and efficient as a working mom with two children. Adjusting expectations does not mean lowering your standards or that you give up on trying to do what matters to you. It means you release yourself of the pressure to keep up a pace that does not serve you well. 

Too often I hear new mamas guilt and shame themselves for not getting everything on their to-do list checked off. Sleep deprived, nursing around the clock, and perhaps suffering from postpartum depression or anxiety, often with little practical or emotional support and still expecting to get it all done.

Too often I hear mamas of more than one child, shame themselves because they haven't figured it out yet. To the mamas on your second, third or fourth child, I am in awe of you. Maybe you think you should know what to do by now because it’s not your first time. Maybe your family thinks you should have this parenting thing down to a science. Maybe your partner is giving you some confused looks over why you are feeling overwhelmed. Sure, some things are easier. However, other things just became a lot more difficult. This is the first time you are dealing with children in different developmental stages with different needs simultaneously. You have more to juggle. You can no longer nap when baby naps because you’re too busy making sure your 2 and 4 yr old don't strangle each other. You need more help than ever before. Do not apologize for that.
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Consider that you aren’t failing but your set of circumstances which includes raising a tiny human have changed and are reason enough to cut yourself some slack.
 Here are some tips for managing these expectations and reducing stress in your day-to-day

  1. Shorten the to-do list. Throw it away if you want to. Delegate. Ask for help. If you find yourself consistently feeling bad at the end of the day because you didn’t get everything done as planned, something has to change and it is not you. It is an easier fix to set realistic expectations around what can be done in a given day and adjust accordingly. Schedules and to do lists are often derailed by unpredictable situations. Your baby might be especially fussy that day, you wake up feeling sick, something breaks down in the house, or you run out of something and realize you need to make that trip to the store. Set yourself up for success by picking one or two things that you want to prioritize doing for the day and then add in a couple more that you would love to get done but won’t be upset if you don’t get around to doing them. The truth is our to-do lists in motherhood never end. There is always something you could be doing but that does not mean you always have to be doing something. 
  2. Set an intention for what type of day you want to have. Is today going to be playful? Organized? A day of rest? Is today going to be the day you take your kids out to the park and nurture your connection with each other? Maybe the house has been disorganized and a mess, so your focus will be a little more on cleaning up and your children will play more independently today. Have you been feeling more irritable, on edge and burnt out? Today should be the day you need a little more self care and time alone so you will lean on your support system for a little extra help and you will leave the housework for tomorrow. See a trend here? Focusing on one or two areas of our life a little more means another area might not get as much attention. That is ok. Make that area the focus of tomorrow to balance things out. Scaling back does not mean you do not care or are neglectful. It means you are taking care of yourself and setting limits.  
  3. Recognize the small things. Train your eye to pay attention to all of the ways you are mothering, caring for your children, contributing to your household, caring for your partner and caring for yourself. The smallest of gestures and tasks often go unnoticed. If you really tally up all of the ways in which you are slaying this mama thing, you will realize that you have been dismissing a lot of your work and time. A study conducted by Welch's found that the average mother has a 14 hour "work" day which adds up to a 98 hour work week. That is more than two full time jobs. I am sure that you are not getting credit for all of that nor are you giving yourself the credit you deserve for all that you do. Start now. ​

Before having kids we envision what kind of parent we will be and how we are going to manage things. Give yourself permission to let go of those ideals now that you are living it. Accept that things are harder than you thought they would be. You are not weak. You are a capable and strong mother. The worst competition you can be in is with the version of the mama you idealized you would be prior to having children. Let her go. You're pretty amazing without her shadow dimming your light. 

Any tips for how you manage your day-to-day? Comment below!
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Real Motherhood Truths

5/3/2018

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​In my first year as a mother, I experienced a lot that made me question whether I was really fit to be a mom. When reality doesn't meet your expectations you really start to doubt yourself. My daughters bring me a lot of joy and they are most definitely worth it. However, there has been a lot of this motherhood journey that has been hard and unpleasant. 

My oldest turned 4 recently. She’s my firecracker. She is sweet, affectionate and really lights up a room when she is in it. People see it and say it all of the time. I’m not just saying it because I’m her mama. I promise.

She is also the baby I struggled with the most. She didn’t sleep through the night until she was 1. That meant I never got more than 4 hours of consecutive sleep for almost an entire year. My husband stepped in and began sleep training. I had always been so against the idea of sleep training. However, this was one of many moments where our parenting decisions took a different route than we had ever anticipated because our baby guided us in a different direction.

I struggled with breastfeeding for 4 months before it became “natural and easy.” I went onto nurse her for 11 months and I am happy I stuck with it. Looking back it made me really hate the newborn phase. The emotional and physical pain was unhealthy for me. 

We dealt with the witching hour, when like clockwork she would be extra fussy and cry nonstop in the evening. I feared being away from my home during these hours because I worried so much about what others would think when I couldn't calm my own baby.

I experienced disturbing intrusive thoughts that made me feel like a horrible mother.
 
The first year can be easy for some. For me, both times around it was the hardest and for different reasons. I felt rage and a loss of control when my second daughter was about 4 months old. She was calm, slept well and didn't fuss a lot. However, dealing with my 2-year-olds tantrums and cries for attention were really hard. Juggling both was challenging. I was taking my anger out on her. All I could think and fear was that this was my new normal. I had been a child therapist for almost 10 years and I felt like a fraud for not being able to manage my reactions and behaviors.

I remember reading this article on postpartum rage and feeling a sense of relief that someone out there had felt this too. Her words described exactly how I was feeling. This is what prompted me to reach out and talk to a professional.  
 
Maternal Mental Health Awareness Week started this past Monday. The Blue Dot Project, which was created to increase awareness around maternal mental health disorders, is having their #RealMotherhood #NoShame social media campaign.

I was inspired to gather #RealMotherhood truths from mothers I know. Here is what they have to say about the struggles they face and the feelings they wish they had been more prepared for:

"Something I struggled with in motherhood that I was not expecting was breastfeeding. I was only able to breastfeed for 2 weeks. Then I had to pump for 2-3 months. It was a very unpleasant experience for me. I couldn't wait to stop. I felt very strange, like an object." -Liz

"We tried so hard to have a baby. Now that she is here I feel so guilty for not always enjoying it" - Ana


“Dreading waking up and dealing with the same things I did yesterday and the day before. Some days it feels like Groundhog Day being a stay at home mom. I find no joy in breastfeeding. I just do it for the kids but I don’t swoon over it. Also, [the] anxiety…feeling like I can never get anything done and having constant thoughts of what needs to get done. Much of this gets better as the months go on and some days are better than other but when I try to vent to someone they just kinda look at me like I’m crazy.” -Angela
 
“Selfishness still comes easier than selflessness sometimes. As much as I love my child, I don’t want to be with him 24/7.” -Arianna
 
“I want motherhood to be enough but I don’t always feel that it is.” -Heather
 
“I always feel like I should be doing better, like I’m never a good enough mom. I also get tired of talking and feeling guilty when I don’t continuously communicate verbally with my kids because you know, the more words they hear...” -Monica
 
"I thought I would be a lot better at this. But I'm not. I feel like I'm failing a lot of the time." -Sara

“All boobs are not created equal. Don’t beat yourself up if breastfeeding doesn’t work or if you are mentally and physically not able to.” –Brenda
 
“Motherhood…it sucks every last inch of me. I didn’t know I would lose myself as a woman. I struggle to keep a balance of mother, wife and woman. How do I switch from 'mother' to 'sexy wife' after a long day? I look at myself and I wonder 'where did I go'?” -Iliana
 
“I wish more working mothers were honest about their experience of bonding. My baby bonded with her daddy so much it heightened my fears of inadequacy and my fear of failing my baby. I often thought ‘maybe I wasn’t born to be a mom.' I felt alone in my experience. Very alone." -Sandra
 
“When things get so hard, I think to myself ‘I wish I didn’t have them’ and then the guilt I feel for thinking that” -Michelle

"Keeping it together. Sometimes I feel like such a mess and a failure." -Kelly

"When I finally feel like I'm doing well at balancing things, life throws me a curveball. One thing I've learned, and it was a hard lesson to learn, is that being a mommy is all about mindset. Sometimes you just have to let things be and go with the flow." -Becky

 
Thank you to all of the mothers who shared their truth.

I think one of the things that would have made it better during those earlier days for me was if I had known that this side of motherhood exists. If we are more honest about all of our experiences maybe the next generation of mothers won't have to struggle so hard. 

Add your #RealMotherhood feelings and moments in the comments below!

For more information on maternal mental health disorders and how you can get involved in spreading awareness please visit:
www.thebluedotproject.org
www.2020Mom.org

www.postpartumstress.com
www.postpartum.net

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    Denise Vite

    Licensed Clinical Social Worker offering an authentic and compassionate viewpoint about all things motherhood, parenting, marriage and maternal mental health. This blog is a blend of my personal and professional experience as a mom, wife, working woman and therapist.

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